It was interesting to have met you and the conversation we had the last time we met. You should be thankful that I have this much respect towards your special friend who happens to be a friend of mine for years.
Just to let you know, I do a lot of stuff to make a living (well, some of it doesn't pay good, but still, it pays my bills). Like a lot of stuff. Most people that I know are like, "You should try to focus on one thing and not do everything." I'm f-----g tired of hearing these things over and over again. I'm also tired of explaining. Well, I can't even remember explaining myself to them because knowing that they have closed minds, why exert an effort on explaining, right?
What ticks me off are those people who I barely know (and who barely knows me as well) saying those remarks. And, yes, I'm referring to you.
First, we are not close. You just happen to be a "special" friend of my friend. So that doesn't make us buds, okay? Second, why judge me in the first place when I'm not judging you on what you do. I do understand that it was your opinion although I don't think it is an opinion because you've been pestering me the entire dinnertime about the matter. You're trying to control my life by saying those words--to conform with the norm. I'm not like that.
Just so you know, I've never been much happier with my life right now. Ever. Yes, I don't earn that much money than I used to, but I'm way happier with the things I do and going on because I'm living my life. I do things what I'm passionate about. And I make a god damn use of the talents that are given to me and not shove it off like most people, like you, does.
Just to make things clear, I have a forte, because you're asking if I know what I want. I f-----g know what I want and I'm living it right now. But I still do well with other fields that I take--that's why I have numerous projects lining up. And working as a freelancer is never easy. Finding projects are one of the most difficult tasks being a freelancer. Since I don't get to have projects on the same field every day, might as well schedule other projects of different fields that needs my skills and talents. Again, I have to earn! I have bills to pay. Not unlike you who have a business going on, which I really am not in favor of, but I keep it to myself and not question you whatsoever because that's how you want to run your life and it's not my business. So, please, do the same thing with me.
I don't know if you're just f-----g insecure about my talents. That you are one of the most oppressed people because you didn't get to chase your own dream. I don't know if you are just concerned because you are intending to propose a business with me. Well, hell, no!
Questioning me about me being in a band. You're just like mom. It's all about the money. You're like, "are you earning from it?" F--k. Don't you ever have a hobby? An outlet to let your creative juice flowing? An inspiration to keep you going? All those doesn't give you money in return. It's an investment to make you live your life. That's why you have a f-----g job or business so you could earn! Why include your hobby in it? Well, if you earn from your hobby in the long run, that's great news! Most businesses/artists that I know these days started from their hobbies. And to let you know, when I'm inspired, I get to focus more. So stopping me from the things I do is a no-no. You just lost my respect.
Oh, another thing, I'm annoyed with the way you converse with people--using jargon and metaphors trying-to-impress-hey-I'm-so-intelligent-kind-of-guy shit. F-----g use normal words that is easier to understand because most often than not, people will misunderstand with the bull you're saying. We're not in a classroom or Downton Abbey series trying to be formal and know-it-all.
Just an advice, grow up. You're f------g old and you don't know shit.
Regards,
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